For me it was not a dark place, necessarily.
The pain just seemed overwhelming and I wanted to escape. I wanted to get away from the hurt of repeated disappointments and the ache of not being good enough.
No one can prepare you for what an inward, emotional pain feels like. Women try to describe labor pains, even menstrual cramps without adequate terminology, so imagine finding a description for an ache that derives from an unfamiliar, hidden place.
Life goes on, all the while the hurt just grows. You smile, you laugh, and inside anguish is eating away at you. Eventually, like a good epidural, you just want to numb the pain – even if that means deadening yourself.
Pain is real. The pain of life is real. And far too many do not know how to deal with the pain. I didn’t. All I knew is that I wanted it to stop. Whatever it took. Just stop.
People say “tell someone” (and I agree) but who do you tell, when there is no one to tell?
Everyone is busy. I can’t disturb them with my problems. They will not understand. He doesn’t care. She won’t take me seriously. Blah, blah, blah… so on and so forth.
So you live. In pain.
Family doesn’t see it. Friends don’t hear it. You can’t share it. But the pain is real.
I tried to make the pain go away. It didn’t work, the way I intended (and today I am grateful for that). But for many that is not their story… they left, feeling like there was no hope. Like there was no escape. Without seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
There is always a light. There is always hope. And there is One who loves, unconditionally.
Whether you are in a dark place or the pain is overwhelming, I dare you to look to the Light. To seek Hope in a hopeless place. To reach for the Love that is waiting just for you.
We have all experienced moments of desperation. Moments when the pain is overtaking us, failure seems to be on every side, and winning is not our streak. In that moment, when you feel like you can’t call on momma, daddy, sister, brother, husband, wife, son, daughter, bff, or even pastor KNOW that you can call JESUS! Scream: “Jesus, save me from myself!”
Jesus, loves you. Your life is so valuable to Him that He will come to your rescue. He loves you so much that He said, “I will give my life so he/she won’t have to take theirs.” He loves you with an unselfish love. A love that does not care what you have done, what you have said, or even what you have thought. A love that can fill any void and heal ANY hurt. Try Him. His love goes on and on and on and on and on and on…
When our love fails, His love remains!
There is no place too dark for His love to find you. No pain too big for Him to carry, matter fact He asks that we give Him all of our worries, our frustrations, our hurts, all that junk because He cares. He cares.
Trust me He cares.
*Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. 1 Peter 5:7 (NLT)*